I miss my God

God,  I am sad. My sadness make me lose my strength.  God,  i really want to meet You.  I can't endure more for everything that happen in my life.

I want to give up for struggling in this situation.
But, if this is Your Plan make me become strong,  just give me Your Love.  It can fulfill my heart without worrying everything

Struggling

I think too much. Worrying too much. Feeling afraid for something that I don't see. Hearing everything and feeling deserved for that things. Oh God, I am really confused.

I just want to do what I want and my focus is not the money. Really. I mean it. If You send me to the place that may be can't be seen by glasses in the globe, I want it. I will go to that place. But I have one wish before I go. I want to bring my special person. I think if I go with him/her who accept me as really I am may be I can do everything I have to do.

I just want to cheer You God with all I am without disturbing the others' life. in fact, I can't do this together. I have parents and little brother who I have to give responsibilities. I have in the world that don't know love. The true love that giving not asking, caring not abandoning.

God, I really struggle for choosing the right decision for all people who I love.

If I make a list of my abilities, I see :
1. I have willing to learning although I take longer time than others.
2. I have talents (singing and serving).
3. I have high empathy for others.
4. I am a good listener.
5. I am mathematician (may be).
6. I am a believer of God.
7. I am an introvert character.
8. I can't speak and everything about English fluently.
9. I like nature.

God, with all of these stuff in my life, would You tell me what I have to do directly?
I have no clue, God.

I really want to know the answer, I will ask You everyday. Please answer me, my pray and my sadness, God.

I only want to love and no more. May be people think I am too naive. But this is me, God. This is me. I do what I trust that You want me to do.

Amen

Hope

If people who don't have limbs, he can give influence to the world. People who have limbs can more influence, too. I am thinking that if people in this world know their talent and use it. Someday I hope this world move to the right direction. Direction that can make themselves and others happy.

I really want to make the new world. The world that will be filled by people who want to choose their path for one goal. I want to see the world that will be filled by love. Every people always appreciate themselves as perfect creation of God.

The world that everything happen in trust. Nobody do evil action like cheating, murdering, corruption etc. Every people use their time correctly. Whatever they want to do s positive thing and have impact to the other people.

I see that hope will be come true.